TA-ship

Today was my first day teaching. Yes, my FIRST EVER JOB IN MY WHOLE LIFE! Jeej the excitement! I'm one of them now, those with responsibilities. Woohoo! Despite the excitement of the ilussion of adulhood, I was nervous as hell summing up to this morning. Will they listen to me? Will I be a complete retard? Will I make a fool out of myself? Will I be able to answer their questions? Will they like me?

This morning, on the tram ride to the university, my heart hopped like a bunny with a gun on its head. Jump or die, bunny. I was so nervous! Imagine 25 pairs of eyes fixating on you, focusing on every word you're saying, waiting for a flaw to attack. Eeks!

But it was surprisingly fun. After the first 15 minutes, the class started to loosen up. I started to loosen up. It feels strange to be on the other side of the class, to be the one giving instead of receiving. I feel an immediate responsibility for them, for what they take from the class. I slowly started to enjoy myself, to see how they respond to what I say, to try to make them have as much enjoyment as myself. True, it is only the first tutorial of the block and I have 2 months to go. But I just hope that it only gets better from here :)

PS. Am loving the perks that came with being a TA: office, staff email address, personalized computer settings, free coffee and tea, free copying. Totally worth the heart exercise.