Anorexia

Wikipedia described anorexia as: "a psychiatric diagnosis that describes an eating disorder characterized by low body weight and body image distortion with an obsessive fear of gaining weight."


It's funny how you see people around you (esp female beings) getting all freaked out when dealing with weight problems. It's like there's this simple paradigm implanted into the society's mindset: thinner equals better.

Dieting seems like an everyday topic in the school: girls who brought apples for both breakfasts and lunchs, girls who starve themselves with biscuits to avoid eating rice and the possibility of getting fatter, and other similar cases. Frankly some people accused me of having some traits of anorexia, although I prefer using the stairs and abandoning the elevator on a daily basis compared to starving myself and risking the possibility of other negative effects of dieting.

First of all, how can people not enjoy eating? I do admit that I dont really have fat genes in me, and its indeed harder for me to gain weight (now, underweight, still this is the fatest I've ever been in my life). How can they object the simple pleasures in life: cheesecakes, creamy chocolate milk, cheese, caramel, and all sort of desserts?

Still, who am I to accuse them? I admit that often I felt rather sick of my current state of beings, and seriously trying to exercise more to lose that extra fat. I admit that I cant be that extreme like they did, dieting and all sorts. I am a dessert person, and a dessert person does not do diet when there's treats luring you with temptations.

Perhaps this is the first time that I admit formally that I do may have some mentality problem over my weight. I always jerked off everytime my friend told me Im anorexic. The truth is, I am not. And even the strongest of my will power to get thinner will only last 1 week the longest. I am indeed a complainer.

Several friends who went through some weight-loss processes (i.e. by minimizing food consumption extremely) found it harder to concentrate in classes, felt that the class's air cons are even colder, but felt extremely satisfied over her self image of being thinner. This leads to another state: I want to be even thinner so that I'll feel even better.

Yes. This is the reality kicking in. This is the world. But can we really blame these females for attempting to feel better?

What really initiated this trend, this demand for females to be thin as a standard of acceptable? Is it the presence of super thin models waving back and fro with happy smiles showed literally everwhere? Or the fact that most designer labels made their clothes even smaller with each passing day? I dont really know what happened to us all, but I do hope that this is only a phase that shall pass soon.

The truth is, Im getting really woried over 1 of my best friend, struggling to keep her weight as low as her role model, Lionel Richie's adopted daughter. I saw her becoming very thin these past few months, she claimed that she felt better over her self image and would like to lose more (the more we said she's very skinny, the happier she felt).

What I feared is that her happiness will demand costs to be paid in higher value.