I went to bed last night at midnight. Woke up at 12 noon. Realized that my little brother has gone to the mall with his friends. Hesitantly I ordered breakfast/lunch from my maids, and ate it, unable to finish them all. Then reluctantly I started to skim through my thick Business Studies textbook, and finding myself able to skim only Topic One. Shit. My trial's on Wednesday and I would have to finish all 5 topics before.
One thing that hits me is how I havent been a good manager of my own life. It says that "A good manager has to be proactive in a sense that one should continually scan the horizon for potential upcoming changes, and to be able to embrace and adapt it to his/her own and the business's benefit".
I havent been proactive.
I never scan the horizon for potential upcoming changes.
"Alternatively, bad managers would let themselves be swept along by the change, or worse, being caught unprepared."
I have been swept along, and always caught unprepared.
Thus I can conclude that I am indeed a bad manager. I know, I know. I know that "nothing is contant in business but change". Yes, I am aware of it, those words are being crammed into our brains since the beginning of the year as a good phrase to begin your essay. Well my life is not a business, but maybe I can see it as one, seeing that I am trying to gain most of it and lose as less as possible.
These days I noticed that everyone is confronted with changes in their lives, and often changes for the better. I can see them coping with open hands; heck, it's for the better. What disgusts me is what I felt, when I feel that changes in my life are often for the worse. I hate to compare, and yet I compare.
Worse yet, I have become an obnoxious sister for my little brother. As he went home (late) tonight and the night before, I yelled at him telling that he's not going anywhere tomorrow as a punishment. Since both my parents are away, I felt that I had the authority to say that. But now even I doubt it. I regret what I said to him, every word. Why is it that it's so hard to me to show what I really feel? I know he hates me. For being an obnoxious sister.
For not being a better sister, and a better manager in my own life.
One thing that hits me is how I havent been a good manager of my own life. It says that "A good manager has to be proactive in a sense that one should continually scan the horizon for potential upcoming changes, and to be able to embrace and adapt it to his/her own and the business's benefit".
I havent been proactive.
I never scan the horizon for potential upcoming changes.
"Alternatively, bad managers would let themselves be swept along by the change, or worse, being caught unprepared."
I have been swept along, and always caught unprepared.
Thus I can conclude that I am indeed a bad manager. I know, I know. I know that "nothing is contant in business but change". Yes, I am aware of it, those words are being crammed into our brains since the beginning of the year as a good phrase to begin your essay. Well my life is not a business, but maybe I can see it as one, seeing that I am trying to gain most of it and lose as less as possible.
These days I noticed that everyone is confronted with changes in their lives, and often changes for the better. I can see them coping with open hands; heck, it's for the better. What disgusts me is what I felt, when I feel that changes in my life are often for the worse. I hate to compare, and yet I compare.
Worse yet, I have become an obnoxious sister for my little brother. As he went home (late) tonight and the night before, I yelled at him telling that he's not going anywhere tomorrow as a punishment. Since both my parents are away, I felt that I had the authority to say that. But now even I doubt it. I regret what I said to him, every word. Why is it that it's so hard to me to show what I really feel? I know he hates me. For being an obnoxious sister.
For not being a better sister, and a better manager in my own life.
2 comments:
thing is, people don't manage their lives... if they did they'd be robots, don't become a robot missus!! stay emotional but stay on ur toes :P!!
sometimes being a very good friend is not all flowery. The best of friends will have the courage to say something hurtful and risking their own friendship to save his friend's life.
So.... what you are being is a strict, caring, and dependable sister, not obnoxious. Stop thinking in your brother's mind or in junior highschooler's who always seems to think restriction against fun is ALWAYS wrong. Which you and I know is not correct.
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