Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Putting on a fake smile to reasure oneself isnt that healthy

When everything seems all ucertain. And your heart is filled with anxieties. You thought everything will be alright. Everything will work out eventually. You try to live as if nothing's wrong. But never once can you sweep the anxieties from the corner of your heart.

Then came another email.

And everything turned from uncertain to just wrong. Right now what you would want to do is go to your room, lock the door, snuggle yourself in the warm blanket, stare at the empty walls and play mellow music all night long.

All you want to do is allow yourself to breakdown. But another part is telling you not to. To stay headstrong.

The worst part of it is not knowing who to tell.

I want to keep myself together. Amidst all these. To inhale deeply. And exhale.

I guess the only thing I can do now is shove them all under the carpet and put on a smile and try to live my life. One uncertainty after another.

Oh God.

1 comments:

Unknown said...

chin up!

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