The Long Wait

I hate waiting. I hate to wait in uncertainty. I hate to wait, knowing how devastating the result would be if it turns up bad.

A dillema now, my HSC diploma may not be acceptible to apply for univ in Holland.

They said to send in your application, and we'll see from there. Knowing that I only applied there, this scares me.

Shit. I have to wait for my brother to fly back there to turn in my application. While I sit here in uncertainty and nothing to do.

Maybe I should stop waiting. When you're not waiting, the wait itself seems hell shorter.

But this is my future we're talking about. How can I not be anxious?

Geez.